sad-angel

Gibicon n°0 2011

Today has ended the first brazilian gibicon in curitiba, a congress for comics lovers. It sais "gee bee" - gibi, it´s like we call comics here..
It was really inspiring. The people, the artists, all that vibe.

I had a really bad week since past friday. A lot to think about the university, my relationships, my friends,my choices,  my work, my life...
But for some reason, i got a little optmistic after all. I got conected to myself again after a long time without doing something for me..
This was a great weekend. It made me accept some changes in my life and project myself for the future..

Everytime i think i didn't enjoy all i could do there, it´s because i was doing a lot allready.
Next year is going to be better. Not only the congress, but - i hope - my entire life.

And it begins today...

Ok, so i just won the contest i was trying in the past month. And what i´ve won? A nintendo wii + guitar hero world tour!!!!!!!o/!!

Yeah i´m pretty shocked. Even thought, because all i could won in 14 years drawing was a black HALLS candy! I´m so happy i could prove myself i can do something i like and be recognized for it.

So, i knew about it last week. But i was waiting for the contest productors to contact me, so i could upload the images i made here in D.A.
The winner image is already posted here sad-angel.deviantart.com/art/B…

Everytime i had like 3 hours left from college and the work, i got in their site just to draw. I spend more time in the winner picture, cause when i have past 3 hours drawing,i was a little sleepy and i´ve just dashed in the button " clear all"...
Yes! You could hear the "NNNNNNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO" FROM CHINA!

I breathed, holded and tryed again for  more 4 or 5  hours.

i´m so happy. Can´t wait to play my new WII !!! o/!!!!

So, i´m definitely working. Just got my first payment today.
I´m really productive these days in college, work and for a contest in the past mouth. That made me a pretty tired person. I´ve never thought i would sleep in the midlle of a 7 o´clock in the afternon and wake up like 3 or four times during the night cause i´m starting to dream about alarm clocks everyday now... Waking up like 5 in the morning is still somekind a miracle for me...

even though, i´m not feelling like an adult at all. I don´t know why, but since my childhood i started to see adults like something i would ever be. Today, almost 4 years living alone, studing , trying to get some money and i still don´t feel myself as an adult person.. well, it seems it´s not so important as i imagined as a kid after all..

ok, so i got an XTI camera and now i can make more professional pictures. But i don´t want to... It´s terrible! but i just lost some of my will for photography lately. I´m just reading and drawing all the time. That´s good for me, i´m producing a lot more and can´t say i´m frustrated with my digital or paper drawing. So it´s fine for me seeing a canon xti getting some dust... someday i will practice more with it...

now the great finale.... or not exactaly. It´s beeing really a hard work since Lisa and I had broken up... 10 mouths of such a relationship.. I´ve never get to someone so long.. well, at least my ipod got into the sink and i can´t feed depressive thoughts with depressive music anymore...

This is probably the endless month of my life..

So, last year i won this digital camera from my mom. I started using it for college, but i took too many crazy pictures just to make college works. It´s really impressive what you can shot when you can´t make high speed drawings everytime.

So i made a flickr to post them in the web. I don´t post it on deviantart because i like D.A. for update with illustrations. I´m not a profissional photographer and i don´t have a pro-cam, so i think posting in flickr works more than posting here....

if you like to see some of them, click here:
www.flickr.com/photos/28d48h06…

feel free if you like to add me.

End of the year, end of another college year and some time to rest.

It makes people moving to the bar and drink like they´re insane for it.
Ok, i made the same thing. I was tired of keep going to college and home everyday. I had to hang out with nice people, having fun and all that social stuff..

But i hate fully places, too much noise and shouting people. So i stated carrying a little scratchbook to draw anywhere i go when i get too anxious or nervous in these kind of place.

Ok so i drank too much, and i lost this scratchbook. The bad part is there was some of my best drawings , and great ideas of projects.. and now it´s somewhere lost in the world, beeing used without my permition or getting recicled in some thrash can right now..

damn it! i never throw any of my scratches out. It´s the only thing i keep to myself for reference..

And i lost my little book of brilliant ideas!

that makes me think how stuppid it is to get drunk.... my stomach hurts and i lost my scratchbook....